paduda

 

Paduda. (urbandictionary.com) – anything that u feel the need to express without others knowing what it is.

the first time i heard this song i browsed my pages for the literal meaning.. aba akalain nga naman ni batman may literal meaning nga ung kanta.

the meaning made me smile.

“thats funny. pabasa nga ulit fwend” (sabi ko sa friend ko na nakasimangot, kasi bakit daw ganun ung video sa youtube)

“aba aba aba! di ko po tinatanong ang opinyon mo patungkol sa vid.. im asking u tungkol sa literal meaning ng paduda!! tama ba basa ko? ” naisip ko baka prang lesser version na ako ng itunes.. nid na ng upgrade para ma SYNC ng maayos sa IPOD.

“nako fwensy.. kung ako kakantahan nyan ewan di ko ma gets.” sabi ng friend ko skeptical sya kasi palibhasa di nya gets.

“so fwend parang alam ko na san na spin-off ni tootsie guevarra ung pasulyap sulyap nya na kanta. “   napa agik-ik si fwensy, sabi nya “sira! orig un kay tootsie..”

eto ung nagflash sa mind ko mga what 10 years ago? san na nga ba si tootsie?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

kinuha ng fwensy ko ung laptop kong malapit na maging dilapidated, sabi nya “nko fwen, ung mga ganyan nko talaga, feeling ko mga sigurista yan”

wao nanlaki mata ko “bakit?”

“di magpapaduda yan, kung gusto ka gusto ka!” ma i know it all nyang sagot

“baka TORPE.”

tinitigan ako ni fwensy ng matagal, mataimtim (grabe haha) .. akala ko ano na sasabihin…… kesyo tanga ako, malandi, tanga, ewan, tanga..

“fwen, nagugutom ako kain tayo puto!” seryosong sabi nya

“tara.” un lang naisagot ko

ayon kumpol kami sa desk ko kumain ng puto na may cheese sabay sa tugtog  ni popong landero

paduda

rapapa rapa paduda

                             rapapadu

                                        rapapa rapa paduda

                                                                        rapapadu

palipad hangin, liligaw ligaw ligaw tingin.. pasulyap sulyap sa iyo di makaharap harap. Nauubos na itong aking inuming nakakalasing ‘di parin makuhang sabihin ikay mahal narin.

Ang sabi nila di raw bagay tayong dalawa. gwapang gwapa ka raw para sa tulad kong pwerteng pangita humahanga lang naman ako sa isang katulad mo. Ang awitin ko nalang siguro ang sasabihin ko.

Di naman siguro masama umubig sayo. Di naman siguro malaswang maakit sa iyo.

Sed’s Kinyintos

presenting a bloggers delight..

his very own blog.

fresh off the web pages? may ganun..

                             www.sedgalope.blogspot.com

 

PALITAW

Unta Hantod sa Hantod na ni.. kani ikaw ug ako..

meron nga bang mga may simula? pero walang katapusan?

mga butang na wala pero naa

mga butang na would never make sense sa uban but makes a whole sense with us.

painfully happy?

happy

so

layo man

do you ever think of me the way i longed for you

do you ever wished for the things that i wished for

do you ever missed all these

?

asa napud ko karon? sa akong kamingaw?

- ring-

my voice shaking

everyday, nangutana ko.. kaya nato ni? what ifs adozen,daghan na kaayo luha… gimingaw napud ko nimo karon lang. I tried to reach your hand, layo kaayo ka. You comforted me with the assurance that you feel the same.

naa lang ko dire, u sed

 

BE STEADFAST

You Said

ikaw akong unang na isip sa akong pagmata

ang sulti nimo

ikaw lang

ikaw akong last naisip sa bago ko matulog

ikaw lang pud

and in our fainted hearts

wala koy lain gi ampo ikaw lang unta

na

we will be together as the sun rises

feets tangled

hearts flying in our togetherness

pero hantod wala pa

ang atong pangarap

hulaton nko ka

pabalik nko sa imo

but for now i will go on holding our dreams

u will always hold the key

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it took me five days to complete this.

not because of anything

but because the photos speak so much of how i feel

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on the fifth day i changed the working title

from extraordinary love to PALITAW

for reasons as mentioned from above

only us will understand

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let me contest that this is not to remind you of how hard it has been for me

but to remind you of how special this is

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iloveyou

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everyday

I would like to thank photobucket, of course kurthalseyislove, your photos have given me an emotional high.

Grateful

Julianne

I’m stronger than before
I’m stronger than I’ll ever be
And I raise my eyes to the one, the one who made me see
Oh what I thought was lost but now was found
And I’m grateful

Grateful for the day you called my name
Ever since you walked into the door it’s never been the same
Mornings are brighter now, I’m not afraid
And I wake up each day with a smile on my face
‘Coz I’ve been in places where I couldn’t even see the light of day
And then you came
And I’m grateful
You showed me the way back to my beautiful
And I’m grateful
You showed me the way back to my beautiful

Everything seems different now
Things are turnin’ inside and out
With a new pair of senses to go with around
It doesn’t even matter if I’m up or down

Blues are bluer, smiles are brighter
It draws a tear whenever I watch the sunsets paint the sky
I don’t even mind walking under the rain
I’ve never laughed like this before and I’m gonna say it once more

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this is for you. the song says it all. i find myself just running out of things to write down…

 to the one who showed me the way back to my beautiful. Thank you.

BiDa Saves The Day.

filling the gaps

Absence diminishes small loves, and increases great ones, as the wind blows out the candle and fans the bonfire. – Francois de La Rochefoucauld

“I’d like to hire a plane
I’d see you in the morning, when the day is fresh.
I’m coming home again”

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I tapped my mobile phone once in a while.. is the battery kaput? is it just the provider? is the messages really coming in late? is the internet going crazy again?

this is it when u rely so much on the phones… u simply feel betrayed at times..

but when the i love you’s and the mwahs arrive u forget whoevers endless faults it was in the first place and excitedly browse remembering how much you love your phone again.

or the person on the other end of  the message, call, whispers or whatever it may be.

unlike brandy who thought long distance was killing her.. i figured kill the killer then. its hard at times when all you need was a touch of a hand, or a rugged smile you get a smiley instead and a warm mwah.

And what do i get?

trust? i guess well since im not there to figure out why he went missing without telling or why he said he’d be sleeping early yet the last log was way later than the time.. i guess u chip in greater trust. i have my shortcomings too but and i know he understands.

hope? hope of bright things to come… yeah who doesn’t.. us? bigger hope! that in a week or two, in a day or another, in a moments time we will be together (go mar roxas!)

emotional maturity? – ahahay need i say more

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i guess i met my match. one who giggles more than me should be a good match right? i wanna be giggle allergic but its just sooooo much to contain.

id like to be grumbly and teary eyed – but he left me no room for that.. he wanted me to live it just like my namesake, which he refuses not to tease me all the time. JOY? where my JOY?

Id like to be ungrateful for the difficult times when i only wanted him.. but his messages soothes that nagging feeling, him being there and me being here..

I wanted to be bitter when i put on my perfume… i knew he loved this smell, then he text me something about his own cologne being he hated it but wears it anyway.

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im coming home again.. in his embrace

now the wait wasnt that bad at all..

the wait made me love him more.

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oh my bayan wireless you make a girl happy..

 

Last night at 1am, i groped for my mobile phone… its beeping and i knew it was my BIDA texting me.

“Lets talk…”

See how little words brings so much meaning!

I promptly dialled his saved number over my bayantel wireless…

Heart skipping a beat hearing his smiling voice.. “Hello? Yeeeeeeee?”

I am but a poor girl again, smiling over the nothingness… and i have bayantel to thank you for. Because after all i have been always felt that bayantel has made me able to contact my family a million times easier, now it served so much easier for us to talk too.. unlimited without the cuts hehe.

No im not promoting or anything i just wanna express how grateful i am for this communication imbalance (hehe)

Now each midnight i look forward to another sweet nothings..

thank you bayantel.. you make a girl oh so happy.