eating time

I woke up and suddenly i was alone…

Literally.

It was one of those low days. My family not being around. My wafu being too far to comfort my aching heart, all my friends have either gone married or looking for someone to marry them before they are goners.

I can feel the aircon blasting full my little toe curling on its own. It is definitely 10am, i am hungry, i smell like a girl gone to sleep for too long, my text messages logged 14text messages unread.. i am alone.

I dialled my mom first.. daddy picked up the phone and immediately detailed their ulam… i felt more hungry, though i not sure whether i crave for food or company more. I texted my wafu.. he replied being that he is in a meeting.. i went about my comforted in a huff. Im B.O.R.E.D.

My good friend rupert dialled my sun cellular.. coaxing me to eat and take a bath.. di gawain ng dalaga yan! he said.. i really didnt believe him oh gosh i have seen worse. But when Mico called up too sa Sun saying ill grow old faster than him it convinced me to do something productive.

So top 5 things to do when you have nothing else to do…

5. Clean out your closet..

This is basically the reason why i was able to find my old watches (all working) including an expensive tag..

4. Clean out your babys closet

I wiped out the old little baby clothes nipped and tucked it away willingly thinking who im gonna share those little clothes to.

3. Take a long long long bath..

Mine took 2 hours

2. Magbalat ng fruits.

After lounging so long i figured wala akong gana, if i do eat baka gluttony na yon so there i ate fruits yumm

1. Movie marathon.. but of course..

Months ago i have purchased several dvds that i never got to watch.. time to catch up with this movies…

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This is what i get for quitting my day or should i say night job and become an enterprenuer once more. Minsan kulang kulang sa oras and at the end of the week you realize hey! sobra sobra pala nagawa ko kahapon i have nothing much to do now. =) Still its okay its worth the money naman and the pagod but i didnt expect the loneliness.

on songs, on love, on love songs

Its coming.. valentines i mean. days to go.. and no matter how you feel yourself outgrowing the tradition, when you see hearts strings on each department store windows, when everyone around you is mushy and sticky (hehe), or when you open up windows after windows of hotel availability booking last minute reservations for sex craved travellers (haha).. cant help but be infected with the fever..

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My pretty friend cyrus and i are compiling our favorite mushy and songs .. cy has the mushiest taste sa kanta hehe ang sweet.. heres one.. it has a local cover done by nina and a foreign singer (which we both think is dedicated for me.. no further comment please)

I’M NEVER GONNA GIVE YOU UP
Frank Stallone & Cynthia Rhodes
(V. Dicola/Esposito/F. Stallone)

I need to know someone
Who’s warmer than the sunshine
Could be that you’re the one for me
Ooh, you touch me deeper, darling
All my emotions’ starting
Come to me now and you will see

REFRAIN:
That I’m never gonna give you up
For someone else’s love
Never gonna let you go
And lose the one I love
Oh, tonight…tonight

Some people never know the
True magic of the moonlight
You give me everything I need
Woman, you really know me
Anticipation’s growing
Come to me now so you will see

REFRAIN:
That I’m never gonna give you up
For someone else’s love
Never gonna let you go
And lose the one I love
Oh, tonight…tonight

Ooh…ahhh…oooh
Forever we’re together strong, ohh
Together here, forever here in love
Never gonna give you up
For someone else’s love (you’re mine forever)
Never gonna let you go
And lose the one I love
Never gonna give you up
For someone else’s love (no I’ll never, no)
Never gonna let you go
No one else’s love

Never…never…
No one else’s love
Never…never…
No one else’s love

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4 Years ago, when i started blogging, it has been my tradition to describe what my valentines would be.. most of them was quietly spent with family hehe(kasi pag valentines talaga either Harrased ako or ang dapat na ka date ko). So i decided for a change this year im gonna be straining my neck to blog about what i think and feel about love this time, this part of my life.. (SELF CENTERED AKO I KNOW)

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When i was younger my dad, used to buy me flowers and my mom for valentines.. mine would be a miniature version of her long stemmed roses. When i turned 17, my family was blessed with another baby girl (so much for being the unica hija for 17 years!) so daddy stopped giving me roses ( i dont know if wala na syang budget for 3 girls or he resigned to the fact na may iba ng magbibigay sa akin). Hindi naman ako na bigo.. meron nag bibigay ng roses so far till i had to move to manila ..

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Ever since i moved here it is always more of a mature valentines. No longer do i desire flowers or chocolates.. more of companionship.. out with friends.. enjoy the single life.. enjoy the dating field, iba na.. this has been my outlook na sa buhay these days.. Masaya palang maging at peace sa where youre at..

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-today-

Now that i have my bestfriend as my boyfriend ahem. It has been a constant remembrance how understanding more is better than loving more. Always better to have a bestfriend than a lover. Always better to hear the truth but measured in love. I even realized that sometimes the best conversation is “silence”. And so far it has been a solid, loyal and annoyingly sweet relationship. Mind you di ako nang iigit- all of my dear friends know how my daily struggle is with my wafu.. but its all worth it naman eh.. we are both happy and that is all that matters.. grounded ang relationship so far so good;

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You ought to know by now
Love is the look in my eye
Lovin’ the way you smile when I say
“I wish you would stay”
You bring out all the youth in me
I laugh and cry out all the truth in me
Out of love
You should know by now

Haven’t you felt by now
Just what it’s like to be loved
Knowin’ that certain touch when you’re sure
Time won’t give you more
You bring out all the best in me
I wanna hold you till you feel t he need somehow
You should know

That if I could just find the words
I wouldn’t be left so lonely
I’m your one and only
Then I’d show you how

Every move as smooth as silk
Say you will
Baby, say you will

Hasn’t it crossed your mind
Haven’t you known all this time
Honestly tell me now, has it shown
How much love has grown
The way I tremble at the sight of you
I wanna learn to love you through and through
This I’ll beg
You should know by now

You should know by now…
You should know… by now…
You should know I love you
You should know by now

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rihanna and my beer moment with a handsome senti…

As i pulled up the sunday paper.. there in all her glory was rihanna.. shes here in manila na.

It was my utmost desire to watch her and chris brown sa open field ng fort but thinking bakit pa eh araw araw ko naman naririnig ung ella ella ella nya nakakasawa rin.. pero ganun padin. sayang lang ticket ko siguro kung si Mariah un hala sugod.

“Am i a good girl gone bad? Yes I am, everyone goes through that phase” yan ang masayang pa cute na sagot ni rihanna.. If they were to ask me that question.. maybe id answer.. “Hell no! I am a bad girl gone evil!” When i was only 9 years old i discovered my penchant for revenge (silent and deadly revenge). My little girl cousin who i kept thinking na nagiinarte lang gets her way most of the time. This is due to the fact na me sakit daw sya (blue baby daw sya nung pinanganak, well i was 9, to me, she certainly does not look like a baby and hindi sya kulay blue!) and she gets her way by cry natataranta lahat. This drove me nuts… in our compound we were the only 2 girls, all of my cousins were boys and otherwise no ones wants me in there fields. I hated that. So i made a decision to cook for my blue 7 year old baby cousin. A mixture of sand, toilet paper, carabao grass, canal water, pig food and alugbati (para naman me vitamins konti). I served it in my lolas nicest bowls. My blue 7 year old blue baby cousin ate it with much gusto. When she realized it was toilet paper and not beaten eggs floating around, umiyak ang cousin ko prompting everyone running natataranta sila. I was disappointed she didnt gag right there. She just cried and i got crucified.. in short pinaluhod sa asin.

Wala naman masyado pinagbago pagkalaki ko.. naging mas brutal lang ang pagkademoniyita..

Anyway back to rihanna mama… my friend cyrus watched her event sa fort bonifacio. Cy in preparation for this he tried memorize most rihanna songs.. malaking pasalamat ni cy sa mga tagalog version mas naging easier to memorize pa. (he even did a visaya version, “gabiee na… – its getting late..”). I was considerably sad din na di ko mapapanood si rihanna, after all she and chris brown will only perform together in 3 cities, manila, sydney and another one totally far from here. So parang once in a lifetime din sya, in a way i was sad din naman but i got a better offer. Whew thank goodness for my ever reliable bestfriend-turned-lover (ahihi) alcris ian mojo who said.. inum tayo mamaya! aba PUWESSSS>>>

puwes nga.. we drank to my hearts content till i felt my world dizzyingly revolving ang sweet and all i see is the also drunk face of my handsome looking at me smiling like crazy (drunk din siguro). After all the useful kalasingan talks.. we turned lasing serious. Now this is an understatement per se, Kasi ang handsome ko, pagsinabing senti abay senti talaga.. talagang talaga… so nag parade ng mga hinanakit nya sa akin and i paraded to ng mga hinaing ko. We ended up asking forgiveness over the past weeks squabbles and i ended up drunkenly loving him again and forgiving him and he ended up saying .. ” Wafa wala lang ka kabalo but ako among all my relationships i treat you differently please bear that in mind bestfriends gud ta!” (you just dont know among all my relationships i treat you differently please bear that in mind after all we are bestfriends!) oha touching.. i figured mas better malasing kasama mahal mo kesa ky rihanna, 500 pesos lang solve na kami dalawa..

So after 10 visits to the public restroom and a revolving peripheral.. ayun mahal ko sya ng sobra ulet ahihi di ko alam kasi if i was just so drunk but now even if i am totally reliving those moments half suffering from hangover mahal ko parin ang handsome ko kahit matapos akong maasar, mainis, lose my grace (ahem) maiyak matawa, beat that rihanna..

hay san miguel beer salamat..

san mig + san mig  equals